Friday, July 30, 2010

Imaginary Play

Ollie is surprising me everyday with role-playing and by just how much he uses his imagination.  Yesterday as we were getting ready for the day, he ran into me moving his arms like a train and saying "chuga chuga".  I asked him what he was doing to which he replied "Ina train".  I asked "Oh! Are you a train?" and he replied with a very certain "YEAH!".  I asked him what noise he made and he replied with a "Choo000o000".  He then spent the rest of the day running round with his arms making train movements and making train noises.

Just now as I was tidying the dining room, he peeked through the dining chair and said "On the tv", he then proceeded to fiddle with an imaginary button (I assume he was changing the channel) and started liting the shows he was watching "Chuggington... no... Handy Manny... no... Little Einstein".  It was so cute.

I can't wait to see what else his amazing little imagination can come up with!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Tot School...

... will be starting up for us again in September!  From September, Ollie will have just one more year at home, before he goes off to Nursery School (from age 3 - 4 years) for a year and then onto Primary School.

I am excited about the plan I am putting together for September and am really hoping he enjoys it!  I am a little bit worried though, about teaching him too much, or teaching him in the wrong way.  By this I mean, I don't want him to go into Nursery School knowing EVERYTHING that they might teach him.  He would get bored.  How do I know how much to teach him myself?

I can't believe in a year, my little tiny man will be going to school for about 3 1/2 hours a day, though I am excited.  I think given another year he will be totally ready to get away from me!  He is so sociable and I know school will be so good for him.  I can't wait to go to all the school open days in December to help make our top 4 list!

I can't imagine him in a little school uniform!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

My birthday in pictures!

I'm now officially closer to 30 than I am to 20... but it's ok!

I had a wonderful birthday... lots of surprises and treats and a lovely family day out!

My birthday started off with a lie-in and being woken up by James and Ollie carrying a massive plate of french toast, maple syrup and crispy bacon.  This is James speciality... the bacon is tucked inside the mountain of french toast.  I know if looks burnt... but it wasn't!  I then opened pressies!  I already had my camera, but James had bought me a top that HE PICKED HIMSELF and it is gorgeous! (He also surprised me with a joke lunchbox.... Hannah Montana...because I like a few Miley Cyrus husband is hilarious huh?)

My mum and my brother Ryan had the day off so they came with us on our trip to the Ulster Folk and Transport museum!  As the weather looked questionable, we opted just to go to the transport part!

Ollie enjoyed it though was quite overwhelmed.  We spent such a long time in the first part... because I didn't know there WERE any other parts.  To my surprise, the part we started in was the first of 5!

It has become tradition to take Ollie somewhere fun on any of our birthdays and I like the tradition.  Last year we took him to the aquarium for my birthday and for James' birthday we took him to Mookie's World (a soft place area).

When we were finished at the museum, we headed to a lovely restaurant/ bar by the sea, called The Dirty Duck.

Ollie was served the biggest 'kid's portion' I think I have ever seen in my life!  He tried scampi but wasn't fussed... the rest of us ate his scampi as a starter!

I had the most delicious crab claws, prawns with leeks and tomatoes in garlic butter, served with toasted ciabatta.  It was heaven in a bowl.  This was followed by pavlova!  I can't eat cream and for as long as I remember, pavlova has always come with cream so I have never been able to choose it as a desert.  This is the first place I have eaten that serve it with cream OR ice-cream on the side!  I was able to have it and I was not disappointed!

After lunch we drove home where James and Ollie went to bed, and my mum took me out shopping!!!  She bought me pyjamas, Thierry Mugler Angel (wanted this for so long!) and some bath bombs from Lush!  I'm also totally lucky, and there is a necklace from Vintage Pearl on it's way to me pretty soon!

On Saturday night, James and I went out with friends.  It was so great to have a proper night out... first in a long time!  I stayed right up until the place pretty much closed!

My birthday didn't even stop here... it continued to Sunday where mum cooked me one of my favourite meals in the world... cola ham, champ and cabbage.  OH YUM.  Also, I got to witness Ollie holding a real life snake... it made me feel ill.

So I am 26 now, and thankful that I still don't have a single grey hair!

We have come to a decision...

...regarding trying for a baby.

Were not trying anymore... at least for the time being.  Maybe we will start trying again after Christmas.  I was getting to obsessed with it all and it isn't healthy to be so fixated on something.  I also think my stress over it might have been hindering the process.

So, I went and got the pill.  That might sound strange, but I feel like I can't NOT actively try... I can't just say that we will relax about it... because I can't.  It's all or nothing (trying or not trying) for me.  I'll be taking the pill for about 4 or 5 months... who knows? Just until I feel better and calm about everything.  I want to get the trying out of my head.  I need to take a major step back.

This would have been my 10th cycle now since the miscarriage and that's crazy!  It is driving me mad not knowing why I have not fallen pregnant yet, but I know that me worrying is making it worse.  I need to focus on something else.

I feel like I need to give Ollie all of my attention, instead of wishing for something that is out of my control... I need to get my feet back on the ground and realise just how lucky I actually am!  I'm healthy and young and I'll get pregnant and have a healthy baby SOMEDAY, but right now I have Ollie who is so much fun and he needs a happy mummy.

James and I lost a baby that would have been the perfect 2 year age gap, but since we can no longer have the perfect 2 year age gap, why not have the perfect 3 year age gap instead.  The more and more I think about it I would love to be pregnant when Ollie starts nursery (next September).  That way if a new bubba is stressing him out at home and he is unsettled, he has a place to go during the day to escape (nursery where all his friends are).  It also means I won't have a hard time managing both a tantruming toddler and a newborn.  The more and more I play it over in my head, the more ideal it sounds.  Our net baby would have one on one attention during the day the same as Ollie was able to have.

Taking the pill for the first time gave me a massive surge of relief.  I feel like I don't have a care in the world at the minute (at least not stressful cares!).  I feel like me again and my mind is clear to think of other things!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Why is it taking so so long... get pregnant.  Were here on our 9th month of trying since we lost the baby in November... and I can't understand why were not pregnant yet.  We got pregnant quickly with Ollie and we fell pregnant on the 3rd month with our 2nd baby.  This is the longest it has taken and I'm really worried there is something wrong.  I try to keep positive and tell myself all the time "things happen for a reason"... "appreciate what you have right now"... "it'll happen when it happens", but this doesn't calm me down.

Why is it taking so long?  I've been pregnant twice and have carried one baby to term... so I know I can do it.  I know it probably has a lot to do with stressing about it, but how do I relax when It's taking forever?

I know I haven't posted anything about it taking us a long time to get pregnant... but it has never worried me this much before.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Ollie's new friend!!

You may remember the bunch of giveaways we had in honor of Ollie's 2nd birthday!

Well one of the giveaways was very kindly offered by Heather from Bumblebird!

To say thank you for hosting the giveaway for her, she sent Ollie a surprise in the mail!!  How nice is that!??

Ollie has named him Roshambo, after the game of rock, scissors, paper!  He adores him!

You can check out Heather's items at Bumblebird by clicking HERE!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

How cute?

New gorgeous photos of my gorgeous boy, taken with my gorgeous new camera :)

It's nearly my birthday!

I love birthday's but more importantly I love my own the most.  I love getting cards, presents, cooked for and love having every focus on ME for the whole day... and I get to have my hubby be off work too!

I will be turning 26 on 16th July.  We don't have any plans really... I think James might cook for me and we will have a lovely family day... maybe we will go to the beach or something if it is sunny and not too windy.  On the Saturday, James and I will be going out to a club we like (Limelight) with my friend Bex (whose birthday is on the 10th) and her fiance for a joint birthday celebration :)

This year I have asked for the following:

Clinique Airbrush Concealer
Swarovski Alice Tea Party Donut Pendant
Monsoon Jackie Sunglasses
Adidas Nizza Low Sleek Polka Dot Trainers
Bow Top from New Look
Wild Child Gift Box from Lush

and I also asked for this:

Sony DSCW320B Cyber-shot Digital Camera, 14.1 MP, 4x Optical Zoom, 2.7 inch LCD

and got it!!!!!  Yep... I got it early!!

It's an amazing camera... compared to my other one, which has been taking horrible grainy photos as of late.  I'll be back later today with a bunch of photos I have taken with it so far.... it is amazing.

Thanks James :)